Monday, September 26, 2005

so true..



there's a saying that goes something along the lines of 'give a man a fish, feed him for a day, teach a man to fish and you'll feed him for life.'

well...with libras it's all about decisions.

Give a libra a choice, confuse them for the moment... but teach a libra to choose and you'll enlighten them for life LOL.

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When you feel like you know everything, life is good. You don't think that there's a problem you won't be able to solve....THEN out of the blue - the BLUE! you're faced with some random situation where you don't know what the hell to do.
Lol...it always happens like that ...it's this vicious cycle. I've come to accept it as part of life - fate maybe. Maybe i'm not supposed to have all the answers...but then if i'm not supposed to have all the answers, how come I can solve my problems?? That's right, I can solve my problems...i think i'm supposed to have the answers - they should be mine, maybe. hmm...i'll have to give this one some thought. I think this is a random situation, I don't know if i can figure this one out...I should be able to. Shouldn't I?

Life

A long time ago in a Cherokee village, a little boy asked his grandfather to tell him a story.

The grandfather began, "inside of me there is a fierce battle. There are two wolves and they are constantly fighting, one trying to overthrow the other. One wolf is greedy, he is conniving , he wants everything for himself. He has only hatred in his heart - he is evil. The other wolf is generous, benevolent, kind. He is gracious, loving - he is good. These two wolves live inside of me, and everybody else too! They even live in you. The wolves are both strong and they are always fighting, they never rest!"

Then the little boy asked "so which one is going to win?"

The old man looked at his grandson's innocent face and simply replied "the one that you feed."



This was part of the sermon at church yesterday...the msg was we have to live the life we have been given before it's taken away....choices along the way are just pieces of the puzzle.

Saturday, September 24, 2005

memories




When you're sneaking out to a club, it's good that you go somewhere that you know you won't get caught....
A long time ago..maybe two years, my younger cousins and my brother wanted to go to calypso hut - apparantly it was the place to be back then, lol. If i didn't go with them, they couldn't go out that night so I gave in and we left the house to go to a movie lol.
Somehow we ended up at the club, feeling all good that we got that far. Outside there was this brown lady selling some nice necklaces with blue lights that were really bright and eye-catching... my brother bought a couple of them and 2 of my cousins and i were wearing them. At the time we thought it was a good idea.

When we walked into the club, the music was good and the dancefloor was packed...
Since the rest of them had never been to a club, they were just taking in the whole scene and I was amused just watching them lol. We were about to venture onto the dancefloor when out of the corner of my eye I saw someone move to the left of our group...I turned and I swear I went into shock, lol. I told my cousins to look too, and I swear we just stood there in disbelief...one of our uncles was there too!
WTF? Why was he there? I didn't care I just didn't wanna be caught I was supposed to be at silvercity, lol. First thing I did was try to turn off the glowing blue necklace I had on..it didn't work! so, i stood there as my uncle walked up to us. he was looking all nervous, stuttering and trying to explain why he was at an all ages jam at calypso hut by himself, lol. he said it was because he came to get food for my aunt, LOL.
yeah, sure whatever - i didn't care why he was there, I knew then that he wouldn't say anything about me being there...
After that the night was good...one of the best memories I have of leading my cousins astray, lol.

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

Lost...

I started watching LOST a couple weeks ago and i'm hooked.
This addiction isn't really a surprise because i'm intrigued by planes and anything plane-like, lol.
so when this series promised to shock me with tales of survivors of a plane crash, stranded upon some mysterious uncharted island..
i had to see what it was all about.
Last week I watched every episode....and for the past couple nights I haven't been sleeping properly. Why?? because i'm having Lost-mares! It's crazyy but soo true. I wake up in the middle of the night, see the hallway light and start calling out to the 'other survivors', telling them "i can see a light -- we're saved!" LOL...yes, i have some serious issues with this show...

Thursday, September 15, 2005

Power Rangers!


You know you want to be one too!

...taken the day after my brother's after prom party at my house. my cousins and i were going to get breakfast, it was only 3pm -- fun times for everyone!

nice eyes...

so i was at A&P a couple weeks ago getting bread and apples, when i noticed this new employee. LOL..
my brother and I go to the grocery every other day, so i notice these things with ease :)
this guy was different from the others...he was BROWN! i could tell he was of west indian descent lol - how i knew that is beyond me, i can just tell... sometimes.
When I went out to my car, he was fixing the carts or whatever it is they do there and he came over and started to talk..he asked my name and where i was from...he's guyanese, lol i told you i can tell sometimes.
you know, i should have known better but he had some nice eyes lol.
so we talked for a while and then out of nowhere he asked if i cared that he was older..please, i had noo objections.
seriously he only looked like he was 22 max, so i asked him how old he thought i was... he said 15! wtf?? who can drive legally at that age??
at that point i don't know why i bothered but i had to ask how old he was...
he was 17.

looks can definitely be deceiving...damn.

lessons learned

book-wise is not street-wise, and without the other it's a struggle to survive.
good is good, bad is bad LOL that's just the way it is.
sounds soo simple, but sometimes it just isn't so easy to understand that.

good and bad don't have to be right or wrong though! yes...complicated i know but completely true.

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

After all...

People say that what's meant to be will...
but how do we know if something is really supposed to happen
or
if it's really supposed to be?
...and do we just forget everything that made it not right in the first place?
Everything...that at the time made us feel like the world we knew was being tortured til the end. I don't know or maybe right now I can't understand why..

Why are we back to a place I thought I left behind a year ago?

ONE year and all I can do is ask why!
why didn't you let go?
why do I want to start again?
why do I only remember rare good things instead of the many bad things?

You can't deny what happened was your fault.
You made me hate everything - up to the sound of your voice, and I don't hate easily.
I cut you out of my life, and used to always miss something I couldn't explain. Maybe that's why I kept looking back...
I dont want to accept it, but i understand it because after all is said and done, nothing matters unless we allow it to.

Sunday, September 11, 2005

Purple Gold



This is what new technology can do for you. It can't really help us invent new ways to make the lines on the road but it can make new, prettier kinds of gold! Even though you need to go to third world countries, buy poor families children and put them to work mining the gold...it's all good because it's worth it when you can make it purple, lol.
Yes, I own gold. I also love my rings and I will probably buy some purple gold one day. I won't sell any children I might ever have though. This is very confusing - I don't know why I am angry now. Maybe it's because the gold is purple. I don't really like purple tooo much, I would prefer if it was magenta or even mauve, but it had to just be plain old purple...i am so disappointed, lol.

Thursday, September 08, 2005

nooo

soo i went for a dreadful drive to the gas station a few days ago...upon entering the station i was shocked - SHOCKED to see 1.29! what the hell is that about?
yes, I know prices are high right now, but they should have seen me pull in and shown some kind of respect, lol. Usually it takes approx. $30 to fill my tank with premium gasoline at normal rates....BUT at these cut-throat rates I spent $20 on low grade gas for barely half a tank! That's just ridiculous. I hate gasoline..no I like gasoline it has a nice smell - I hate the cost of it right now, it isn't nice. In fact, it's very bad. Very, very bad indeed.

Monday, September 05, 2005

something to think about

When you were born,
you cried and the world rejoiced.
Live your life so that when you die,
the world cries and you rejoice.

The Giver


This book is amazing. The plot is intense, and it just flows so well.
There's this boy Jonas, and he lives in a utopian society. The world he's grown to know is one that's so structured that an individual's emotions barely exist. In his world, people lives are dictated to them...who they will become, what they will do - is not in their control.
I can't begin to describe the journey you will go through as you read this book, the sequence of events keep a very strong hold on the reader.
The content is unlike any you would expect and as such, it has lead to the book being banned from elementary schools on more than one occasion.

I read this back in grade six, and since then I haven't found any other that comes close to it.

Sunday, September 04, 2005

Yop

http://gprime.net/video.php/yopcommercial

this could possibly be the best commercial ever...

hell no


Today my sisters were watching a movie about FURBY. Yes...the scary little creatures that have NO arms are back. I don't know who came up with the idea for this toy, but it was WRONG. Furbys are not cute little toys...they are evil - EVIL!
They speak in strange tongues, and their eyes are piercing. Beware of them, you've been warned.

TV



Far, very far from here, in a little village full of mushroom-shaped houses live the Smurfs. The little characters are three apples high, have blue skin and are dressed in white trousers and a cap. Yet they are a happy, easy-going bunch - give or take one or two..I can't really say at this time who those may be, but i know they aren't happy smurfs.
I was soo hooked on the smurfs, i don't know what it was but they were little, blue and always had some kinda drama going on -- smurfette was always trying to seduce someone, and Gargamel wanted to exterminate their species...so all in all, there was never a dull moment.

I even went to a pre-school called Smurfs and Smurfettes. I loved that school..I always wanted to go the next day because I thought I'd finally get to meet the smurfs...How could i know that the students really were the smurfs?
It's okay though, because now i've come to realize that smurfs may just be a cartoon...

one thing that I do know for sure: Alf is real.

fear

Religion is an essential part of life for all people. You can say no, but whatever you believe - that is your religion.
Personally, I don't like how religion can dictate a person's life. If you accept it, fine...but don't impose your views on anyone else. My family isn't just of one faith - we're everything. Maybe not jewish...but I'm sure you understand what I mean.

In this world where wars are fought in the name of religion, it's clear to see that it really isn't religion but the people themselves who stray from their beliefs. Instead they choose to disect and splice together their beliefs into the original faith to wash away their guilt.
Suicide bombers in the middle east...they call them martyrs. A martyr is defined as someone who suffers for their beliefs, refusing to turn their back on their religious principles. So why do we call murderers martyrs? What they do is not for the society, it's done for their gain. But i guess greed is okay if you're a martyr... or maybe it's okay then to kill innocent people to gain power. I don't know, I'm not a martyr - atleast i'm not like them.
They all say they are killing in the name of their God, but in the Koran, as well as the bible it is stated that if one kills themself they will go straight to hell.
For all their ranting that religion is everything to them, they are quick to turn a blind eye to the teachings that don't suit them.
That's a blatant double standard, one that should not exist. It just allows chaos to roam free.
And if individuals should do stupid things, does it mean that all of the poeple in that group will be the same? I think not. For anyone who believes that all terrorists are muslims, and therefore muslims are bad.. what planet do you live on?
Terrorists are everywhere...when the oklahoma bombing happened, did the rest of the world shun all americans? NO..in that same way, all muslims are not bad.

needles...



umm yeah...i really want to go for a checkup now.

what??

If you can answer these, you may just have too much time on your hands, lol.
Why do they sterilize the needle before a lethal injection?

Why do we call them apartments when they are all together?


If cows laughed, would milk come out of their noses?


Why does Denny's have locks on the door if it's open 24 hours?


Why do people press harder on the remote control buttons when the battery is dead?


Why is there Braille on drive-thru ATM buttons?

Why are there handicap parking places in front of a skating rink?

Why is there a sign at the Post Office that reads: "No Animals Allowed, Except Seeing Eye Dogs". Think about it.

Do infants enjoy infancy as much as adults enjoy adultery?

Why isn't the number 11 pronounced onety one?

"I am" is reportedly the shortest sentence in the English language. Could it be that "I do" is the longest sentence?

Isn't making a smoking section in a restaurant like making a peeing section in a swimming pool?

Why is it considered necessary to nail down the lid of a coffin?

Why don't you ever see the headline "Psychic Wins Lottery"?

Why is lemon juice made with artificial flavor and dishwashing liquid made with real lemons?

Why is the time of day with the slowest moving traffic called rush hour?

Saturday, September 03, 2005

news, lol

http://
news.yahoo.com/s/afp/20050828/wl_uk_afp/britainaustriaoffbeat

Now don't you feel more complete knowing that there is such a place? I thought so.

duckies



Is a picture really worth a thousand words?? Try and tell me no, lol.

hmm..

right...so i woke up and I'm feeling like I have some kind of hangover. My head is spinning, the room looks like it's not one I know and the light hurts mah eyes! Now see, that's unfounded because I didn't drink last nite! If I did, then it would be all good....consequences and what not, lol. Ohh...it could be that I had to wake up only FIVE hours after I finally fell asleep ..when you have little sisters, you can never sleep when they don't want you to!
What's done is done though...can't fall asleep again, so what can i do?

All for One and One for All?

I don't understand why people just can't be more compassionate..it always comes back to individual gratification. As long as the individual is okay, then why should anything else matter? I do not like that attitude....it limits what we can achieve. Take for example the situation in America right now, Hurricane Katrina has left the States struggling to repair the damages left in her wake. People are dying and hope is fading at such a fast pace.
On tv, we see poor, mainly black people looking like they are clueless and scared. Some are angry and they are turning on each other. I've tried to understand why, but honestly if I lived in the most powerful country, and I was left to die like that....I don't think I would take it well.

FOUR days without any food or water....it makes you think that nobody cares. It's as if they're trying to wash away the economical faults of the country, raise the poverty line.

But that couldn't be the case, because:

1) The government is sending aid now - yes, it really has been four days.

2) Even though there are rumours that they want to open the floodgates, drowning the remaining citizens as they flood the city -- there are no "gates". There ARE Levees...if one was to be left broken because the army can't fit the sandbags to the choppers properly, or if another one was to break and uncontrollable water was to enter the city, then perhaps the people might die.

3) There is only so much that can be done at a time. There was a warning to evacuate, and even though they did not have the means by which to leave, the stranded ppl should have known better, right?

4) Government says that the city will be fixed....it's gonna take years but i'm sure the residents can just live in the relief camps all that time.

with these things to consider, how can you even start to think that the US doesn't want to save those people? It just takes a long time for them to help their own, colour has nothing to do with anything - even though when they sent buses for the people at the superdome, they had to wait until the guests from the hotel next door were sent on first. It didn't matter that the guests from the hotel were clean, wearing good clothes and had all their things, they had to be first.

On a fundraising show, Kanye West had some harsh words for the President. He was quoted saying the pres. "doesn't care about black ppl...america is set up to help the poor, the black, the less well off as slow as possible."
He also stated "I hate the way they portray us in the media. If you see a black family, it says they're looting. See a white family, it says they're looking for food...they've given them permission to go down and shoot us."

People are dying, and that should not be the case in a country as powerful as the USA. If the government is taking it's time to respond, then why not come together...instead of segregating themselves further? They should understand they are trapped and must survive - together.

what happened?

Nobody can make you believe what you don't want to believe. But if there is any doubt in your mind over what you thought was true could be false, then aren't you believing it...
I found this on the net a while back...is it just another conspiracy theory?


http://www.freedomunderground.org/memoryhole/pentagon.php#Main