Wednesday, November 05, 2008

Another Chapter

I'm in a writing mood. I think I want to write a book...yes, a REAL book.

So much has happened in the past couple weeks, and although I'm stronger because of it, it still lingers on my mind.

It will always matter and I won't lose faith or hope because I know one day things will be okay..but for now, it is what it is.

I've learned from it and it's made me stronger, maybe others can learn from it to.


For the first couple days I was all about 'trust no one' and 'don't get attached' but you know what? It's not worth it to be like that. We live and we learn and if we don't fall down every once in a while, how can we learn to pick ourselves up and move on?

Life is like ...a box of chocolates? LOL no, seriously Life is constant. It will be there whether we choose to acknowledge it or not, so why put up a front and play games? Just say hello to life and start your journey.

Monday, November 03, 2008

the four letter word..

no, please don't guess! lol..because more times than none people are inclined to think of the bad word rather than something simple and light.

The word is LOVE. For such a small word, it carries a big meaning.

Why is it in this day and age, that we cannot express our feelings? It's like it's become a moot point to really say how we feel...as if society will judge us unfairly if we express ourselves.
Don't get me wrong, society makes us into who we are BUT when will we stop worrying about what others think and do what is right for ourselves?

We live in a world where we are always under scrutiny and the world seems to be in constant fear of emotional expression. WHY? Where is that fear going to get you? Other than keeping simple feelings inside and not having the people you care about know? That's not such a big deal...or is it? I think it is.

For me, I could care less what other people think. Life is NOT guaranteed...the only guarantee we have is that death will come for us. When? We have no clue.
I won't live in fear because like I've said: if you live in fear, fear will live in you.
That's no kind of life to have.

Love...such a simple word yet people run for the hills when they hear it.
I'm not afraid of this word...yes, it takes me time to be able to say it BUT when I can say it to someone, they should know it's because they have my trust.

I love my sisters, my brother, my parents, my aunts, uncles, cousins...and I love my friends, just like they were family.
I even loved my ex...see he turned out to be a jerk so now I shouldn't love him BUT that's beside the point.
No, I don't believe love goes away but it can stop growing if you turn your back on it.

Love is one word with a thousand meanings. The meaning is different with every situation you find yourself in and it's up to you to know the difference.

Why should we be afraid of that?

Old people ask the question 'what is wrong with today's world' without expecting an answer...
but I'll tell you what's wrong!
Our younger generations are too pre-occupied with garnering other's approval that they stop thinking for themselves.
Yes we live in a world that's different , the unacceptable has become acceptable and vice versa...I'm not here to judge, only God can do that. For me, I'll live my life as best as I can so in the end I'll enter those pearly gates. All you can do is live yours how you know is right for you.
The youth today grow up thinking it's ok to be so judgemental - it's NOT.
That's the reason our world is falling apart. Stop analyzing others and look at yourself! Don't let someone's else's reaction determine your own.
Our generation is too smart to let things happen this way.

I can go on and on...but for now I'm gonna stop before I hulk-smash something.

November...

Who remembers October? I'd like to say not me...and in a way that would be true. I don't remember the month going by, I remember turning 24 - thinking life was good. Then as soon as that thought came, life just knocked me off my game and turned everything I knew as good...well life just turned the tables on me. Now, it's November and I'm here trying to figure out where the hell did time put everything I had?