Work and the rest of the day, lol

I can't say i LOVE my job...but i like it - always some kinda mischief goin on, good times.

Last shift though, it wasn't too good.

First, the store next door controls our music soo all i heard for 5 hours straight was slow jams. I like slow jams...but that day it was soo obvious someone next door had some serious tabanca. Bad thing? yes because it made me all tabanca-ish by the end of the nite, lol.

Second, saw an ex with his FIANCE...yeh not the best day i ever had. Cuz as much as you're over someone, memories still linger. and with the slow jams and everything...this just wasn't a comfortable situation.

Third, was hit on by an ewww 30-yr old man. WTF??
I told him i wasn't interested....then when he still wouldn't go away i told him he was tooo OLD, lol. yeh, that isn't the greatest thing to hear but he was soo determined...his response to that? "what do u want, a boy by your side or a man to take care of you?"
He just couldn't accept rejection...lol.

yehh...last shift wasn't the greatest..but gotta say work is definitely unique.

soo screwed...

WHAT the helll...just wrote my last exam yesterday. Chemistry -- ewwwwww. I passed, jus don't know by how much - yes, it was that bad. To top that, my two finals yesterday seemed to go from bad to worse...jus don't have a good feeling about this.


It's the damn marks that are stressin me .. and really i don't know what to do. I'm soo worried, I wanna go chill and I keep calculating GPA in my head. That's messed up.

Whatever happens is out of my hands now...soo it's time to lime :D

secrets ...

atleast that's what i heard on seventh heaven the other nite...yes, that's right 7th Heaven. LoL...apparantly if you keep secrets, they can make you sick. That's what the mom told her little twin sons. Now I dunno if it's true or it was just to make them tell her what they knew...but can't take any chances right?

soo three secrets that i can't keep anymore....

1) Im really not too fond of ppl at church...the ones that try and preach to me how they think things should be.

2) I know what I want but just don't know how to get it. Then I think about everything and wonder is that really what i want? So i guess Im still at a point where i dont' wanna settle when there's so much more.

3) It takes time for me to trust someone..if i don't know them i can't bring myself to commit to them...and even tho i don't believe time should state how well you can know someone, i think you should take time before taking any kind of big step... sry Avin, but that was soo unexpected and really, it just wasn't right.

yeah soooo the whole thing about secrets making you sick...i dunno but it's not soo bad to let them go.

Jus...wtf?

the more you try to deny something the more it makes you realize how ridiculous it is to even think that it could be possible....
if something is a certain way, who am i to change it?? gotta let it fade on it's own right? even though it may not seem like it's possible right now things are always changing...sooo this is prob. one of them -- who knows.

as much as i'm missing what used to be, I know that if i try to pretend it's not that way it's gonna be worse. BUT if i say yea, i miss it...it's bad too ----see, sometimes there's just no winning LOL.

although that's the case...today was a pretty good day :)

Karma

I know you all fully know what i'm talkin about. I'm not gonna mention names but i'll just say that trust is very important, it's also very delicate.
There's so much going on but just remember what you do now does not just happen and go away one day it's gonna come back in some form or the other for you -- jus wait and watch. you're young give it time, lol.

soooooooo confused, lol.

at times i'm indecisive... i can be like that up until i know i have to decide, lol. See, now it's one of those times...what do i do??

sooooooo this brings me to a very important place...do i choose to move on to something more or wait and hope that things turn out the way I want them to? because even though life is good it doesn't always give you what you want right?
and esp. when other ppl are involved, they have their own thoughts too, nobody has control of the other sooo then you can't really just wait around and hope that it's all gonna be the way you want...or can you??
cuz see it's just like this.... there are choices you have to make, and from soo much to choose from, when none of the choices are equal and there is one that stands just that much more... and you know that yet the process was still complicated because ....

see what if you choose that something and you're still left unsure...whether it's in or out of reach...
out of four options (a,b,c,d )

say a is better than b, c and even d, how can you just say okay fine , a isn't gonna work soo it's gotta be one of b, c or d?? that's just umm... really it doesn't seem to fit....soo what then ? jus leave it out and go with the rest...wtf?

crazy

Brown girls in btown are seriously crazy...if this offends you ...then you must be one of them.

Honestly, if you see a girl with a guy...why must you give them / her cut-eye?? really, does it make you feel better to do this or is it something you do to make you seem jus that much better about yourself and your things to do to make yourself seem cool list for the day?

at work I saw a FRIEND and his girl soo he came over, gave me a hug and said hi...his girl jus walked off to another part of the store, gave me this dirrrty look and didn't talk to him when he went to pay for the clothes he bought her. LOL...honestly that's messed up. if i was his ex, then i could say okay...but really she was jus crazy.

case 2, i was out with some friends at school and we decided to go catch a movie...at the theatre i saw my ex with some friends. In his set of friends was this eww girl who loves him off sooo i thought i'd get her vex...i went over to my ex to say hi and (even though he may very well be the devil ) i gave him a hug LOL :S This girl went all out psycho...i dunno what the hell happened to her but she jus started cussing me out saying that i had no right to be there, or do that which was quite amusing...atleast for me :P

seriously though, brown girls are crazy....not all of us, but most of us. mee...i just like mischief.

green tea...this is war.

yes...... wtf indeed, lol. Apparantly this is my kryptonite - who knew? not me...cuz see this past sunday -- Easter sunday -- a good day, a party day for my fam...I decided to end the night with the rest of them having coffee and tea to ward off that stubborn hang over like feeling. Sooo my dad made me some nice green tea :
After drinking a LITTLE bit of the damn green liquid from my lovely tea cup, i started to feel like i was getting some kinda west-sars like virus. lol...it wasn't good. my lip looked like I was in a boxing match sooo i took some benedryl -- gotta love that stuff, tastes like freezies :D

about 15 mins later, my lip was fine but i couldn't breathe soo my dad called telehealth and i had to drink a lot more benedryl while they sent over the paramedics, pretty but not too smart firemen and the cops :S yes, 1am and my street was lit up like christmas.
with all the meds in me, i was soo taken with the lights and soo drowsy I didn't know left from right -- i do remember asking if i could go to the hospital in the squad car tho and NOT the ambulance....the cops said no :( LoL....my mom liked that answer, she said the neighbours didn't need to think i was a criminal or anything.

all in all it was quite interesting...but now i don't feel soo invincible anymore. don't get me wrong, I still AM, but you know....this weakness thing takes getting used to!
Today I got an epi-pen ...apparantly the docs still give out the same line about better to be safe than sorry, lol.

welll thats all for now...i've gotta be on benedryl until tomorrow, sooooo it's taking it's toll..tooo drowsy to cause trouble heheheh.

song of the day...

King without a Crown by Matisyahu....

honestly, hearing the track the first time i liked it....then I found out about the artist and there was soo much hype surrounding it. Can't say that I heard of him before now, but his music is decent...and I really do like this song. It's cuz of stupid work - they play z103 soo I have these random songs stuck in my head but i'm okay with this one :)
Gotta say, never thought i'd hear reggae from a Jewish rabbai looking dude but it's all good LOL.

:D

Yeah, J.C. is my homeboy too :D

The next two weeks are probably the most religious weeks for Christians...or they're thought to be. It's the ending of the lenten season...Easter time.
See, during lent...40 days and nights , people give up something they like or something that tempts them in their life - they do this in memory of Jesus. In his time, Jesus went into the forest for 40 days and nights where he was tempted by the devil but didn't give in.
Next week, it's palm sunday...the week of JC's return to Jerusalem where he was then captured and crucified - He died for our sins on what we now know as Easter.

It's different this time of year...going to church seems to have a purpose or maybe it's just not so mundane. There's a certain process to follow and it's always memorable.

well, with that said...gotta get back to some hmwk :)