Went to Inside tonite...actually it was last nite, friday ...and now it's EARLY on saturday morning and i can't sleep, LoL. 4am...tired, but not sleepy enough to go to bed :S

Inside was sooo good ! Definitely had some good times, but there was some drama too. Lately seems like i've been gettin wrapped up in a lot of that wtf? well tonite it wasn't my fault...someone i know decided he had to act dotish and get on stupid and make an ass of himself...dunno how he's family ... ANYWAY, fam. or not, if they're stupid, they're stupid....i told him, he acted dumb ...we fought = drama in the club, lol. Oh well it had to be done, he was being stupid and tryin to dance up on one of MY friends ...told him not to do it...but he had to do it anyway....DUMB to say the least.

Watever...it's all good, done...i know he always does shit...sooo should have expected it...but something else i know is i dont take that from him sooo we were gonna clash at some pt. Too bad he's fam...now there's bad blood or whatever it is they say...?

arite no pt. in stressin over it, i would react the same way again...lol Inside was fun times though, and can't wait to go back next week :D

bdays

Happy Birthday to a special friend ..she's 18 today, so young but legal now LOL.

Happy bday to Adrian too...i think its today, really its the thought that counts right? :) from ching to now..it's been time!

I don't fight...i'ma good girl but really, this is getting outta hand. there's one person and only one person I would say I am gonna fight and its this girl who had the audacity to cuss at ME in a club...for no reason at all (except that she's not me and never will be). THEN she decides to come chill outside my house ...talk to MY brother like wtf , you can't do that...there are rules in war yo. LoL... serious though, i walked outside and my brother tells me 'guess who's here?' with this devious look on his face. As soon as this girl sees me...she takes off like what? act all big and can't even say hello? Now that's just rude...i'm sure your MOM didn''t raise you like that. Yes, that's right, i said something about your mom what now? LoL.. I swear it's all b-town's fault i'm turning into who I am.

Dont get me wrong, i love btown, i'm not gangsta and I do not resort to violence like it would seem...lol u know, gotta let the truth be known.

Thursdayyy

...who's going? lol

Private call

Last nite I got a call, dont know who it was...the call lasted just under a minute and i could hear background noise and the person breathing BUT just before the phone cut out it sounded like the person came closer to the phone about to say something..then the line went out. I dunno...it's been bugging me since then, couldn't sleep and usually that's not like me. It's just a phonecall, right? BUT I can't put it out of my mind....and you know when you think of everything complicated instead of thinking of the simple explanations? Yeah...well it's not good to think like that.

*if* this was a prank call and i find out who it was...i'll deal with it (dont think it was though, soo it's all good).

I worry a little bit too easily these days, lol.. and calls like that don't help. Can't do anything about it now but still, it's on my mind.

not that sorry

If you know me, you know my family and my friends mean everything to me! ..my friends right now, i love them :D

I'm usually telling ppl that karma's gonna get them...yeah well karma's gonna get me and i know it will, just don't know when and/or how but i know it's coming LoL. this isn't usually how i am...but on this one occasion mannnn there was NO other way around it LoL

see...the other day I was supposed to go chill with a friend. I haven't been treating him well, been cancelling on him all the time and just not being nice but I couldn't be bothered because i've been busy...family, other friends and it's been hectic - yeah those are excuses but whatever.

See, the thing is for friendship to work there has to be some kinda common ground...like an understanding of the other person or something i dunno. I did feel bad, but I know that chillin with him is just gonna give him ideas he does not need to get. it would be soo diff. if he understood my take on things but he wants what I DONT...even so i'm nice to ppl soo i told him yea we could chill soo he took some time off work the other day and guess what i did??
I cancelled :| tell me you didn't see that coming? lol..

Heyyy I didn't make him take time off for me and I had good reason for cancelling too...
the nite before i had a dream, in this dream I was getting married --- to him :S wtf?!? hell no that was never gonna happen soo as soon as morning cleared i cancelled.

yeah yeah...i know, it's me vs. karma and the odds aren't good but i'll deal with it....if you had that dream you'd take your chances with karma too LOL.

time, thinking

Too much time to think can be a bad thing...today was not too much fun, had too much time on my hands, nothing to do so naturally I started to think about everything and anything just to pass the time.
It's said you shouldn't live life with regrets...just do what you wanna do. I don't think I have any regrets but if I could go back would I do things differently in some situations? I dunno because then I'd be admitting I had regrets right? wtf? see...that's what too much time does. Time is something that you can't criticize though...not enough time, that's not good.
That's why I 've come up with a new theory time for me...isn't time for someone else. It's not like it seems, nothing ever is. What I mean by it is ...to know someone well, time can't tell me that -- it's how much I know about them that can say something and they can show me that in an hour or a year but it depends on the the person...

My parents are Trini and growing up all i heard was how 'friends will take u but not bring you back' ...when i was younger i was like wtf? but now I know it means that you can put soo much faith in your friends but they may not be there like family for you when you really need them...they might be with you up until you get in trouble but wont' be with you to get you out of it.
I can't speak for everybody BUT i know not all...but i know there are a few friends I can turn to no matter what and i know they'll be there.

Steve Irwin

RIP CROC HUNTER

Even though I didn't know him personally...he's the Croc. Hunter and just watching him on tv and knowing he's gone is surreal.
His life's work was conservation and hopefully people won't forget that.

the truth

WHAT CONSUMES YOUR MIND CONSUMES YOUR LIFE...