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Writing is my niche...my way to get through different things whether they're good or bad...regardless of an audience, writing just helps soothe me. That's who I am.
Music is good too and some people can relate to what writing can mean for some, with the way a song can make them forget everything and just feel at ease in a moment.

Granted, it seems like my mind has been stuck lately...in a place that I still cannot understand to this day, writing will hopefully be the process that gets me through it.

That's what's on my mind today...not getting past things because I think i've done that...what I need to do is let it go instead of holding on to the past.

Sounds easy if I'm willing to let go right? But ask yourself this question...if the past makes us who we are today, can we really forget things in the past that have brought us to this moment in life - without altering the good person we've come to be?

Happiness.....what?

Aristotle once said that "happiness belongs to the self-sufficient."
Take it how you want to but for me that means that only you can make yourself happy. Don't get me wrong, there may be people in your life that bring joy each and everyday you're with them BUT if you weren't making the choice to appreciate them and what they mean to you, you would not recognize the happiness they bring to your life.

With that said, I decided that I would try to start being more appreciative of little things....

I found this picture on google images, and can't help thinking although it's sweet, those puppies are probably thinking 'Oh HELL no!'

Today

Ever had one of those mornings where you think that getting out of bed could very well be the end of the world as you know it? This morning was like that. I had a very, very restless night and it seemed like every hour on the hour I was up, looking at the time. I set my alarm for 10am thinking that would give me more than enough time for my class at 12:40pm. BUT guess what happened? No, guess again. Nooooooooo lol, let me tell you. I heard the alarm and thought I could get an extra half hour....BUT being the sleep-deprived genius I am, I slept through the snooze alarms...not just alarm but alarmS - there were maybe 3 of them. I ended up getting out of bed when I looked at the clock and saw it was 12:20. One word and one word alone was in my head then and it was a bad one lol.
I got to class late and saw the Prof. was talking about something on the overhead...I don't like to be rude and interrupt so I thought I'd wait a few mins til she changed slides.
See, I had to wait the extra mins anyway so I thought hmmm let me go get a coffee.
As I turned to go downstairs to the cafe, I slipped and nearly tripped myself to death down those damn stairs. I always knew one day the stairs and I would fight but really..why did it have to be today? LOL...
Finally made it to class and it was good, learned some new things....all the while the only thing on my mind was revenge against the stairs....and I knew exactly what I had to do...after class was over I took the elevator and threw the stairs a gruesome look on the way.
Yes, that was how today started...now it's 8pm and I'm tired as hell..and it shows, my sarcasm is practically non-existent sooo to save you reading boring non-sensical words, I'll say adieu. (That's goodbye Mary Poppins style, homies!) :)

2009

Soo it's a new year, new things...right?
Crazy how time flies by. Feels like 2008 just started when in reality it just ended, WOW.

Ever wonder why things happen like they do? Why does life turn out the way it does for us?
Those are questions that plague my mind, especially when change occurs.
I've always been the first to accept that change is inevitable but I could use it happening less frequently!
I have a love-hate relationship with change. I like the new-ness of it, the feeling that anything is possible that comes along with a new situation. I hate the way it makes you feel like you're in over your head now that you have to adapt to this new-ness.
That in a nutshell is how I feel about change lol.

School started back for the winter semester. I thought I'd freak out when I had to return to my dorm but it was the opposite that happened. I actually like being back here, it gives me a feeling of serenity and peace....of course that only lasts until the first tests are up so right now, I'll have to make the most of it and enjoy the days before stress sets in.

Christmas break was awesome this year. My family (all of us, extended etc) is all about Christmas. It's a time where every little fight or disagreement with each other is just forgotten. My mom has 8 sisters and 2 brothers. It's a big family. Trust me, things happen everyday! lol but this year we all came together and made the best of it.

So although I still think 2008 flew by in a blink of an eye, it ended well for me and that is something I can't complain about.

Happy New Year and all the best for '09!